Friday, January 16, 2015

I think too much :)

Sometimes it's really, REALLY hard being an over thinker. I'm like this in nearly every aspect of my life. It drives my hubby crazy sometimes but hey, he married me. He has to deal with it :)

So, yes. I overthink a lot. A lot. There's a fine line between not putting enough thought into something and overthinking it. I often can't seem to find the line. I'm pretty sure it's written in invisible ink where I'm concerned.

Today, I want to talk about overthinking things when it comes to my writing (but is it really overthinking?).

I have an idea for a story. Actually, I have two ideas for two stories right now and I'm just not sure how to write either of them. I think they're great ideas (there I go thinking again). They're both different than anything I've ever done before. One of them, I feel like it's sort of the story that I'm supposed to write. It's going to be a challenge but it's one that I have to take on because this book will pretty much be the book of my heart.

But that's where the trouble comes in. There are so many variables in life and also in the publishing industry. So many things to consider, not only in telling the story in the best way I can, but also in timing, and the industry. Yes, I know what you're thinking. Just write. And while I agree with that and I'll always be true to myself and my voice, for me personally, it doesn't work for me to not consider ALL THE THINGS before writing a book.

I'm not one of those kind of writers who can piece together a story out of order or just write knowing that it's not working the way it's being written. I am a planner, and a control freak in some ways, and there are certain things I have to have figured out from the start or I drive myself crazy with "what if" and "What about?" and any other way I can find to question myself.

It's frustrating.

I'm sure it's especially frustrating to my friends because I'm also a talker. It helps me to talk things out, even when I know the other person can't tell me what to do. It helps me work through things in my head.

So, for over two months I've had this story in my head that I know I have to tell. I have to, but considering I'm only at 3,000 words, I have this fear that I'm not going to be able to do it. Or that I'm going to do it wrong. That I'm not going to do this story justice and that scares the crap out of me.

What if it's the wrong time? What if people don't want to read books about *insert plot point here*? What if I choose the wrong POV? Those are all the thoughts that I can't get to quiet down enough for me to figure this book out. It's driving me crazy. Seriously.

It's scary for a planning, control freak like me to never know what to do in regards to my career. When I worked in the hospital, I knew what to do. I had a set job and someone to tell me how to do it. It's different here because words and stories and books are so subjective. Which, I guess means there is never a clear right or wrong answer and sometimes (like now!) that's hard for me to swallow.

But I will keep going. I'll figure it out eventually.

Are you an over thinker? Do you need everything figured out from the start, or is it easier for you to just kind of let things go and see what happens? Is it even considered overthinking to be this obsessed about the topic at hand? I'm not sure on that...




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Saturday, December 20, 2014

Favorite reads of 2014

I'm pretty embarrassed by the number of books I read this year. 2014 was a tough year for me in a lot of ways and that reflected in the number of books I read. There were a few great books that really stood out as my favorite reads of the year. These don't have to be books that released in 2014. They're just books I read this year.

ARISTOTLE AND DANTE DISCOVER THE SECRETS OF THE UNIVERSE by Benjamin Alire Saenz

BETWEEN THE STARS AND SKY by David James

THESE GENTLE WOUNDS by Helene Dunbar

THIS IS NOT A LOVE STORY by Suki Fleet

DARE YOU TO by Kate McGarry

EVERY DAY by David Levithan



What were some of your favorite reads of 2014?

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Thursday, December 11, 2014

Huge announcement!

Hang tight, folks. This is going to be a long one. It will be worth it though :)

In early 2013, Allie Brennan sent me a picture she knew I would love. And I did. A lot. The second I saw it, I knew I had to write their story. I was crazy busy at the time--tons of contracts and deadlines so I couldn't get to it right away. Every week or so, I would pull this picture out and look at it. I have no idea who the people are. If they're models or if it's from someone's real life. It's not mine. I don't own any rights. But it was inspiring.


I posted it on Facebook one day and everyone fell in love. Before the day was over, they had names (Bradley and TJ). Later that week, they had a story. I didn't have time to write the book, but I made time. That's what you do when you love something, you make time for it. I probably drove Wendy, Jolene, Allie, Kelley, Christa and Steph crazy talking about this book but like always, they deal with my craziness :) I loved the story. I loved the journey. I wrote, a few of them beta read. I revised, sent it to my agent and eventually it went on sub.

While I waited, I couldn't stop thinking about TJ and Bradley. I contacted an artist who drew something up for me. This is NOT the cover, but it is Bradley and TJ. This is from their book and I'm pretty in love with it.


Artwork by Jeminabox

And now, I can finally announce that their story, which was inspired by such a cool photograph will be published from Harmony Ink.

THE HISTORY OF US is about two boys, both out, who go on an epic road trip to make a documentary for TJ's film class. Sometimes it's not about coming out, but about settling in. That's sort of the basis of this book--settling in, learning about who you are, and their journey of discovery while interviewing people from all sorts of different backgrounds while on their trip.

I can't tell you guys how excited I am to work with Harmony. I read a ton of their books, both their YA side and from Dreamspinner. I know they are a great home for THE HISTORY OF US.

More information soon :)

And wow, that didn't end up as long as I thought it would!


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Monday, December 8, 2014

2015 Anticipated Reads

Hey guys. I can't believe it's almost 2015. I always feel old when I say things like that. LOL. But really, time is flying by. I'm not sure where this year went.

Anyway, that's not the point of this post. As I as going through my book list, I decided to share some of the upcoming releases for 2015 that I can't wait to get my hands on!



And because I'm funny like that, I made a separate collage for those books that I plan to drop everything for the second they come out. These are the books that I would totally use a time machine for, jump to the future, grab these books and head back to today...you know...if that was possible :)



I know I should be all cool and organized and hit you guys with blurbs or at least links for these but writing is calling. That's a good thing, right?

What are some of your most anticipated reads for next year?



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